Software Engineering Defense: Dati ako ang ginigisa, ngayon ako na ang nang-gigisa.

Akala nyo revenge yung ginawa ko pero hindi. Gusto ko silang tulungan para mapunan yung loop holes nung mga ginawa nilang programs but the thing is, dati ako yung nakatayo at nagpre-present sa mga nakaupong panel yung system namin ngunit ngayon sila naman yung nakatayo at nagpre-present ng system habang ako’y nakaupo bilang panel.

mahirap ngunit kailangan.

Song of the Week: “Like We Used To”  by A Rocket to the Moon

There’s so much pain and heartache behind this song. It’s about this guy not wanting it to be over between him and his girl and him knowing that he can’t get her back because she’s with someone else

…It should’ve been me instead of him in the dark

Does he do all these things, like I used to…

I also think its about this guy missing love

I know love, im a sucker for that feeling

But i also think that he still wants the best for her even though its not with him

Will he love you like i loved you will he tell you everyday?

Will he make you feel like you’re invincible with every word he says?

Can you promise me if this was right, don’t throw it all away will he do all these things, like we used to?

It’s a very heartbreaking song that keeps you on reminding and doing things that you can’t do it anymore because she’s not at your side anymore.

Dear Anon,

kung sino ka man na nag-tanong kung mahal ko pa yung ex ko, pwede magpakilala ka? intriguing at disturbing kasi. hindi ko na sya mahal pero aaminin ko, she still lingers within me and there’s nothing wrong with it, naging part sya ng buhay ko at normal lang yun.

pakilala ka, dali.

Dear Ex,

I’m really sorry if i’m such an asshole showing off AGAIN my pride which I always shown to you 2 years ago but this is me, I don’t know if you still know me but I’m always the person you’ve met before. I’ve changed a bit, I’ve been through a lot since we broke up and parted ways. It’s hard for me to admit the BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE which was to let you go.

I’m sorry but I can’t let you be my friend, for now. It’s my moving on process because a part of me is not over you.

It’s ok if you’ll follow me in Twitter, read my blogs and I’m willing to give all of my blog accounts except my Facebook because I don’t want to see you and know your things. Call me bitter, call me immature but this is me, this is my method.

Sorry.

These past few days are the roughest days so far this year.

Ewan ko ba, parang hindi ako ito ngayon siguro lumalabas nanaman yung pagka-bipolar ko. Naiinis ako, hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko. Ito yung mga nangyari:

  • Nag-away kami ni girlfriend dahil sa wala ako sa mood.
  • Nagparamdam yung ex ko na iniiwasan ko dahil ayaw ko nang ma-confuse at ngayon, na-confuse nanaman ako. letse!
  • Thesis
  • Thesis
  • By the way, group itong thesis pero ang nangyayari, INDIVIDUAL ang nangyayari.
  • Naasar ako dahil yung mga ka-grupo ko eh pa-petiks petiks lang ang buhay habang ako’y halos hindi na kumakain at hindi natutulog

ang saya talaga ng buhay ko. pramis at ang pinaka-masaklap sa lahat.

  • wala na akong pera.

puta.

Random Fact: Frustrated Paramed student ako. sana nag-Med Tech na lang ako.

Ewan, matagal na ako may interest sa field ng Paramedical pero ewan ko ba kung bakit ako kumuha ng course na pang-Paramed.

UST is a Catholic Church.

Dear Ex #1 Theme Song: Ikaw Lamang

(she’s kidding or maybe drunk when she sang this to me. hahaha)

Dear Ex #1 Theme Song: Only For You